Wednesday, October 1, 2014
IWSG Wednesday: Feeling blessed
As a writer, it's easy to get caught up in my craft--to daydream about the snapping dialogue I'm going to write, to feel intimidated by the massive plot revision I'm in the middle of, to wonder about my publishing prospects. I spent a lot of time with my mind spinning in the future.
It's easy to think: as soon as I reach *this* milestone, things will be better/easier/more worthwhile: once I finish this draft. Once I've finished revisions. Once I get my first partial request. But of course, each milestone only brings new ones in its place.
Last night, I had an epiphany. I was thinking about my children, what I want for them in life.
*I want them to life faithful lives.
*I want them to have work that interests them.
*I want them to have good friends, and family.
That's it. I mean, other things would be nice (health, sufficient wealth for travel and a few perks), but these are the essentials.
And then I realized: I already have all these things. By my own definition, my life is rich. And this writing work is some of the most fascinating work I've done. Hard, not always financially rewarding, but always intellectually rewarding.
So I've decided for now to focus on this: on enjoying what I currently have, and not what I think I want. There are a lot of things I can't control about my writing, starting with what happens to it once it leaves my hand. I can't force readers to enjoy it; I can't force an agent to pick it up.
But I can write.
And I can enjoy the ride.